I can only tell you what it feels like

On our second day of class, after our quiz, our professor said to us, “2 quizes down, 20 to go.”  After today we have 20 down and 2 to go.  I am one week away from being done with Greek and that is absolutely insane.  What is more insane is to think that I am leaving the day after for my homebound adventure.  6 full days of Colorado funness and then back in the car to drive off to my new life as a seminarian.
My mind has been working a little bit overtime these last few days.  In classic Alicia style I have pulled into myself as I’ve been evaluating a lot of relationships in my life and thinking about how crazy my life has been and continues to be.  I am really excited about classes starting up and meeting new people.  I’m excited to continue to invest in the friendships I’ve made these past 5 weeks and to make some new friends.  I’m excited for my classes, they should all be super fun and interesting.  I’m excited for my niece to be born, even if I’m 1000 miles away.  Basically I’m excited for life right now.
This week has been especially draining for me.  Moving around so much these last couple years has taken its toll on me.  It’s messed with my sense of “home” and makes me a little uneasy about friendships.  I’ve gotten a lot better at the long distance friendships but I think I’ve become more socially awkward (if that is possible).  Last week I was so social, going out every night and meeting new people.  I really tried hard and put myself out there and it was exhausting.  And as a result I didn’t do as well on my Greek test on Monday.  So I started this week a little emotionally drained.  Trying to find community is hard, it takes a lot of effort and energy.  Which is a good thing because nothing worth anything ever goes down easy. (name that song).
The saving grace for me this week has been the couple of friendships that I have found here that are already easy and good.  People that I have fun with and enjoy being around whether it’s walking around the neighborhood or watching Bethenny Getting Married?  Even studying Greek has been made more fun.  It’s been good to already feel like I have a couple of friends that are genuinely fun to be around.  We laugh a lot and we enjoy the same types of things.  It’s been good.
The only other thing keeping me alive these days is Starbucks.  Joke all you want but Greek is HARD and the bucks just makes it that much more enjoyable.  I do love me some good Starbucks  (as if that’s a shock to anyone who reads this blog.)
This post seems a little disconnected but that’s how my brain feels these days.  The full lyric for today’s blog title is “I can’t tell you what it really is I can only tell you what it feels like” … It’s basically how I feel these days.  I can’t really tell you what is going on up there in my head, I can only try to put words to these feelings of unsettledness and the joy of new beginnings.  I think that this summer has gone by so fast that I never allowed myself to really process any of it as I went.  It’s starting to catch up with me and I’m all in my head these days.  I need to get out of my head and into the world again… maybe when Greek’s done (which is what I say about everything.)
Greek quote of the week:  a conversation between me and my friend in class during translations.  He was disagreeing with our teachers translation… for the record, he was wrong…:
Me: ‘”Did you just ‘Boom Roast’ our professor?”
Him: “No, I just ‘Boom Roast’ed the Bible”

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