there’s only two mistakes that I have made
it’s running from the people who could love me best
and trying to fix a world that I can’t change
I was driving in my car the other night. The darkness all around me felt all consuming. I pulled into the driveway and walked briskly to the door, without knocking I walked in. I was greeted by delicious smells, warm hugs and reassuring smiles. The rest of the night was spent with new friends, bonded together by our call to ministry. We ate and laughed and celebrated the newest call in our group.
At the end of the night I got back into my cold car and this song picked up where I left it off a few hours earlier. It’s a song by the new band of my all time favorite songwriter (bonus points if you know who that is without googling it). In this part of the song the singer is talking about seeing a woman he sees driving next to him with tears in her eyes. He mentally offers this piece of advice to her.
I don’t entirely know why this lyric tugs at my heart strings but it does. I think it’s the complexity of running away from people who can love you best and wanting to fix the broken world around us. As a pastor, sometimes it feels like my job is to fix the broken world all around me. To fix the pain around me.
But the real key is to remember that I can’t fix it. I’m not the key. It’s Christ. I need to remember that always, the mistake is in trying to fix the world around us. The correct response is to open our hands up and let Christ in.