my life be like…

I realize how tired people are probably getting of hearing me say over and over how much I love Seminary. But I do, and this is my blog, so yeah.
I love Seminary.
Now, don’t get me wrong.  It is hard.  It is really hard and there are moments where my head feels like it just might explode and I don’t know what to do with that fact.  But even in the moments where things are really hard and I just want to quit, there is a glimmering light that pulls me back and reminds me why I am here and who I am.
Yesterday in one of my classes (my hardest class if you wanted to know) our professor checked in with us.  He does this quite frequently, asking us how we are doing.  Someone spoke up and alluded to the fact that this particular class was pretty hard and how much work it required of us.  Our professor looked around the room at all the nodding heads and after pausing for a breath he said, “Well, Seminary is hard.”
I have this professor for two different classes and we’ve had this moment with him in both classes.  He acknowledges our struggles in the class but then always just says that we need to be faithful.
Be Faithful.  Two simple words and yet it’s something that in this context is really hard.  When he says it, he doesn’t  necessarily mean that we need to have faith (I don’t think).  He’s more challenging us to just keep swimming.  We may feel like we’re drowning.  We may feel like nothing we read is actually sticking into our brains, but eventually it will click.
He also brought up a good point yesterday, we are being prepared for ministry.  For a life of serving in the church where anything can happen at anytime.  Our teachers want to prepare us for that and to be successful in Ministry.  Not that learning will end after our 3 years but these 3 years are the time where we get to buckle down and learn as much as we can about God, Jesus, the Holy Spirit, the Bible and how to apply those things to our lives and the lives of those around us.  We need to learn to preach and to decipher the word and prepare studies.  We have a lot to do in these 3 years.
Not to mention…. I signed up for this.  I knew it would be hard and I came here.  I enrolled, this is on me.  So I am learning to be faithful to hundreds of pages of reading and all sorts of things like that.
And that’s where I’m at these days.  I go to class, I go to the library, I go to Starbucks.  I sometimes hang out with my friends.  I hang out in my apartment, reading.  This is the life of a Seminarian.  And I love it.